Finding Inspiration In Four Empty Walls

Hello everyone,

It’s been far too long since I’ve posted, but guess what? I landed my first big girl job. The opportunity presented itself abruptly, and was offered to me quite quickly. There wasn’t much time to decide. And because of that short notice, I had to put in my two weeks for my other two jobs and juggle working at all three for a couple of weeks. It’s been very stressful these past few weeks, but I’m starting to get the hang of 9-5 world.

There’s just one problem.

My hearts not 100% into it. I don’t know if it’s because I’m so new, that the work isn’t very challenging right now, or if it’s because I don’t feel like a full-time employee (I am a contractor right now), or if I know it’s just an in-between position, a transition into my future.

My industry are mommies and I’ve been doing a lot of research on them. I’ve been reading about all the first three year basics, from breastfeeding to sippy cups. I’ve read blogs, reviews, birth stories, both the beautiful and the tragic. I’ve watched videos, and I’ve reached out to parents I know. I don’t have any kids and I believe the biggest  challenge for me, is that I cannot grasp the depth of motherhood, and I won’t fully understand it until I become a mother. But I respect these women. I respect their commitment, their sacrifice, their strength, I respects their feats and their little achievements.

Every time I look at blogs, I’m reminded of my own that I’m neglecting. And it makes me sad, but it also inspires me. I find myself day dreaming about article topics, headlines, photo opportunities, and hell, even the appearance.

It makes me happy, given the circumstance of my unfulfilled somewhat full-time job, and it’s OK because these women that I’m learning so much about are inspiring me to keep my goals at the forefront.

I just think it’s pretty awesome, finding inspiration in an empty office, from wonderful women that I’ll never know.

Here’s to being optimistic that every thing will work out the way it ought to.

Goodnight readers, more posts to come.